It is yet another transition period. After another term of hustle and bustle, the time has arrived for another long and dreary period of anticipation and frantic mugging. I can almost feel the excitement and nervousness tingling in the very air, but however hard I try, I cannot feel any drive/motivation in myself.

It seems that life is nothing more than a long expanse of significant events and transition periods. What is worse is that the realisation of this fact came at a time where it is no longer possible to enjoy the longest transition period, that of birth to JC. The only "significant event" within this period is the PSLE, which did not really require the entire primary school time to study for.

Nevertheless, the continuous barrage of minor term tests and common tests have maliciously disguised themselves as "significant events" and made this nice and smooth transition period no less daunting and stressful than it is now. Burdened with the weight of expectations and the prospect of an endless array of assessments, we trudge mindlessly into the distant future.

The reason behind the appearance of time passing quickly is precisely the consequence of the above scenario. BECAUSE we move from significant event to significant event, the actual time between these significant events move past with hardly a notice. Assume that I have spa tomorrow and PW report due 3 days later. From now to 3 days later, I hardly REGISTER the passing of time, being so preoccupied with these daunting tasks. Hence the bitter feelings of nolstalgy when so often we look back and find that our past is merely a faded concoction of vague and blurred sensations and dim memories.

"Slow down, we're going too fast!" A very good statement from some past commonwealth essay, I feel. Like Nietzsch says, we must often stop and reflect on where we stand currently. Past, present, future. The weaving of a perfect life story does NOT necessarily to follow the route that was SET OUT for one. Hence we should always ponder whether what we are doing currently is what we WANT to do. Maybe the best marks is not truly the best path of action. A mix of good marks and maximising what limited time we have might probably work better. Of course, if you're some workaholic who don't mind spending your entire time mugging towards the ultimate good 'future', don't be disappointed when you don't have your ideal future or if you had your ideal future but find that your entire past has been nothing but a barren expanse of meeting deadlines and mugging schedules.

Finished rambling. Hope I can find my motivation soon.